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Reasons For This Blog

If you read the Spot Of Me section, you’ll know that I started writing when I left my massage job. After I’d gone through my compulsive writing phase, I left my writing for a very long time and tried to forget about it. I think it was simply a case of not knowing what to do with the book, because it wasn’t really a book. And if it’s not a book, you can’t publish it. But it always bothered me. I had spent so much time writing it, and then I just left it. What was the point? In a way, it was perhaps necessary that I wrote it, because it was cathartic, and that, in itself, is a purpose well served.

Now, when I read through it, I can’t relate to it. I cringe at some of what I wrote. I realize now that it isn’t an entirely honest account and that it is written in a generalized sort of way, not giving all of myself. The person who wrote it back then is a different person now. I wanted to burn it. But then a friend said I should try do something with it, not to let it go to waste. ‘Perhaps some people are going through what you went through, and may learn from it or relate to it’, she said. Which brings us here. I realized (perhaps too late) that it’ll be perfect for a blog. I decided to use some of the subjects as kibble for my blog. No matter how embarrassing some of it is, there are still a few gems that need to be shared with the world. Most of the subjects have been reworked to better reflect my being in the advantageous position of having been on both sides (a bitter angry, subjective person fresh out of the sex industry, and now a more relaxed person who is better able to understand the reasons men do what they do). I will now publish these articles in no particular order with my current musings in-between. Additionally, as I gain more of a loyal readership, this blog may evolve somewhat as I venture more into the Other Side. I’ve had quite a hectic life, and have many stories to tell, apart from my massage adventures.

Even though a lot of my subjects aren’t original or ground-breaking, I still think many subjects are being overlooked because they’re such common everyday occurrences. But the fact that these things happen every day doesn’t necessarily make them right.

Another thing I’ve realized from the maturity of time is that you need to write in your own voice, not for others, not to impress them, but for yourself. It’s the only way your personality can come through, and stand out. I would feel like a fake if I had to read my stuff and it wasn’t a part of me who wrote it. So I have to be brave. I have to do the scary thing of letting people read my private thoughts and experiences. I’m not only doing it for myself, I’m doing it for you too. The decision to make this blog live is very difficult for me, but I’m forcing myself to take the plunge. Perhaps you too, can learn something from my blog.

You may also think that this blog is extremely personal, sometimes embarrassingly so, but I decided that without honesty, this blog wouldn’t have any substance, and without substance, who would care to read my blog? I mean, if I didn’t want people to read my stuff, I wouldn’t have a blog. Without my readers my blog means nothing.

So that’s that. Enjoy.

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